Life changing experience
I actually read Ecstasy and the Dance Culture last year, prior to trying
the drug for the 1st time. In fact it was because of my stubborn refusal
to try the drug which many of my friends had discovered, that I was given
a copy of the book to read. You will have heard all the compliments on the
book before. Suffice it to say, it was a thoroughly enlightening read, confirming
much of what my friends had been insisting for months and one which resulted
in me dropping my 1st pill that Saturday night.
I know that you will also receive many tales of "My first time"
but I really would like to say a few things. Throughout my life I have always
been one of the quiet ones. Shy, underconfident, insecure and introverted.
I have always led a safe and routined life, my only real excess being cannabis
which I have smoked enthusiastically for 12 years. (Since I was 17) Guided
by my 3 closest friends that night, I popped the Dove I was given and finally
realised exactly who, and what I am. At the party which we then went to,
I soared! I met literally dozens of like minded people, many of whom have
now become very close friends and I talked and danced into the following
morning, amazed that anything could feel so incredibly True. Until that
night, I never knew that I could ever feel THAT good, that content, that
in love with the world.
This is nothing new of course, and I read the personal accounts in your
book with delight, being able to relate so well to the feelings of elation
described. However, I can also say without any melodrama, that the drug
changed my life. At the party that night I met a wild and crazy individual
who in addition to having a deep love for E, had spent the last 3 years
of his life transporting aid to the War torn former Yugoslavia. We talked
and talked for hours and as a highly pressured, and disholusioned Marketing
Executive, I was amazed at the passion which this man had for his work and
the people who he was helping.
Some say that you should never make a serious decision under the influence
of ecstasy. Well..I did. Peter was in the process of organising another
aid convoy which he was due to lead in just 3 weeks. I had no experience
of aid work, had never driven a 17 tonne truck, and apart from a few holidays
to the mediteranean, had hardly been outside of England. But I decided that
I had to go. The feeling which I felt was indescribable. I discovered a
strength and confidence in myself that I never knew existed, and if it makes
any sense, suddenly felt hugely in love with life.
In the few weeks leading up to the trip I had constant anxiety attacks.
What had I done!! this wasn't the sort of thing that I did! I didn't even
know this guy and I'd just agreed to drive 3500 miles with him into a war
zone and back. But I was committed...and I went.
The account of the trip is somnething which I've almost considered putting
into a book and I won't bore you with the detail. Suffice it to say that
it was a truly life changing experience, pushing me to new levels physically,
mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. As we headed out of Sarajevo on
the way back over mount Igman, I simply couldn't believe that my life could
have taken such a dramatic turn. The memories will stay with me for ever
and my life has changed subsequently also in that I have become involved
with a number of other charity organisations and have completely changed
my previously chosen "career path"
It is absolutely impossible to explain adequately how I, and my life, have
changed as a result of taking Ecstasy. I now have unshakeable belief in
the existence of my Sprirt, a completely different attitude to life and
everyone around me, and a wonderful sense of inner calmness which I never
had before. Above all...I believe.
Your book was instrumental in this and it has kept me good company ever
since and I shall continue to use Ecstasy to enrich and improve my life.
If only more of the world could see and understand as you, and many us now
do. Please continue the cause. We all have a responsibility to educate,
inform and enlighten and You have the love and support of many, many fellow
Thank You, from the heart and from the soul.
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