A binge on TNT, cocaine, ecstasy and speedMy friends and I went out 3 nights in a row, and on the last I took about3 E's (two 'Love hearts' followed by 2 halve's of McDonalds) we also had 'Vick' (which we normally use) and on this occasion 'TNT' (some kind of nitrate that you can buy in sex shops).
As I was 'coming up' on the final half I took two huge breaths of the
TNT. All I can remember is my mind leaving my body and going to another
place, feeling so wonderful, blisfull, no feeling of my body, my
thoughts completely clear and a feeling of 'freeness', floating freely
around bathed in white (but not bright) and a slit of something
different ahead, no sound.
The only description I have for this place is heaven. I imagine that this lasted
only seconds but it felt like forever. I remember then feeling myself
slipping away, I then realised with such clarity that if I didn't come
back now I was never going to come back. Suddenly I felt my heart racing
my chest heaving and I was back inside my heavy body.
I managed to stagger to a chair and all I could say to my friends was
that I'd just been to heaven. I don't know whether it was just a big
trip or perhaps if the 3 days of drug use (cocaine, ecstasy and speed)
really just came to a head and perhaps for a moment I did die? But it
was the most frightening experience I've had using drugs.